Thursday, October 20, 2011

Unhappy

I have been deleting people from facebook and in my life in general so that I can rid myself of the toxic environment I was in. Yes, most of these people are in the queer community. I have never done well with queer communities, I cannot handle how involved everyone is in your life. Also, I would prefer being involved in a group where if there is a problem between two people, it is only a problem between those two people.
I've changed. I have never denied that, and I like how I have changed. But there are so many things that make that difficult. People often treat me like they did before, which only makes my life harder. Theatre kids have realized this and they respond to who I am now. In many ways, they have never known me any other way. Theatre is the only place that I am safe to be myself. As crazy as it may be sometimes, I am never truly judged for it. I have also never felt more supported and cared about in any friend-base I have ever had.
I guess the thing that is so difficult with this is how offended people are about being taken off facebook, when they rarely talk to me. And to be honest, most of my "friends" require me to come around more or need me to come see them, but they don't bother to come see me or contact me. Some people are even mad at me and not talking to me, but god-forbid I cut them off!

If I am following my Laws to Live By, there is a rule stating that "if something or someone makes you unhappy, discontinue with it." Well I made these rules for a reason, might as well follow them.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Apparently I can't be a Mother....EVER. WTF?

So I cannot handle the amount of people who forbid me from having kids. I recently on my other blog(comment not posted) received a comment on something I wrote about a year ago about Glenn Sacks. It was one of my posts against MRA's(Men's Rights Activists) and someone commented. I have reason to believe it is a man, because why would a woman yell at me about women's work ethics? This man also posted anonymously because that is the only way men like to attack me. At the end of it he declares that he is praying to God that I will not ever be able to have children(male or female). I find that offensive! If I said that to ever person I dont agree with, I dont know if anyone would be allowed to reproduce, hell I wouldn't be born... This wouldn't bother me so bad if I didn't get told this at least once a month, often by people who claim to be my friends. Sure for a while I didn't plan to have children and I didn't want children, but things change, people change. I might want to have children, and to have people say that I would be the worst mother ever, really bothers me. Of course no one would understand how that is hurtful to me.